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Hello peeps , its been the longest time since i last updated. Yes imma lazy bugger. I need to start focusing but there seems to be millions of distractions.I really need to start praying more often then not as well as i need to study constantly. I can deal with this I know I can. I believe I can do it! The last of updates is due to my pretty busy schedule that Im trying to cope with. I also want to catch up on sleep , but hell no its never going to be my way. Life's a bitch and its unfair imma have to learn how to cope. Sabar je lah d , the outcome will be great InsyAllah.

I hate it when people decide to share personal problems to the world. Like its effing facebook the whole world reads it. I now realize that I've hurt you , I don't think you ever want to forgive me but you know you said dont humiliate me? Well guess what , you doing the exact same thing me to. Kudos , you just want to rub it in is it? Or do you want me to feel how you felt when I did it? Is it a must to announce everything through facebook? Why share personal stuff?

Maybe I did go over board and Im sorry but the past cant be undone. A mistake is a mistake , you learn from it right peeps? But your doing the exact same thing to me. Have you ever had this feeling that you love somebody so much your so afraid that they'll leave you if they find somebody better then you cause you know that he's to god damn perfect for you and your just a piece of shit who doesnt deserve such a nice guy? Well thats how I feel. Honestly Im afraid that my boyfriend will find someone greater than me who deserves him way way way more than I do and just leave me hanging there. The truth is im a coward. This reason above is the exact same reason everytime I see him flirt or text or whatever with any other girl i flip. Yes peeps Im afraid that i'll lose someone as great as him. I dont think any guy has ever reached he's standard yet. This guy has broke all guys record. I tell him just about anything. And for some specific reason i dont get shy around him , i can be myself you know. Haih I wish I could undo what I did to this awesome guy. Lastly Id like to say sorry to Haris Yunus for hurting your feelings unintentionally and I love you.