i dread counting the days

I hate school in fact you can use a word stronger then hate , just the thought of school makes me sick. Bloody hell , I have to stay in school for another two years , then im out yippppie. I hate the fact that I have to wake up so god damn early and wear a huge boring colored baju kurung five days in a week. The school compound is bloody hot , the heat is unbearable I think I could get a heat stroke some time soon. Even though I hate school like shit , I love being around my classmates , close friends and teachers. Other then that its a total dread.

My closest classmates and I had a 'picnic' in class today courtesy of moi , I bought some some biscuits and we ate a whole lot not to mention we made a mess. Yeah , we break the rules and eating in class is fun! Today it was let-it-out day for me. I open all things that was bothering me onto a piece of paper , as usual. The paper normally gets me into all kinds or shits and messes me up , I know from past experiences but its just how I let things out. Its been the way I let things out for ages so I just continued with my dumb ass act. I wrote three letters today. I also got called a pussy for not talking to the person up front , apparently I ain't got any balls to tell it to her face. But in my eyes its just the way I let things out.

I've also got a case of too much stress , my lovely support system is always here for me thank god for them! Mummy said this morning that I look sickly and Shahiza said I looked pail , what the heck. Im bloody under weight and im hungry all the time no kidding people say im lucky I get to eat like hell but I don't put on weight , but its starting to irritate me! I want to gain weight just a little , even 3kg's would be enough. Sleep is another issue , I once read an article that teenagers tend to be sleepy a lot cause of our hormones being well , our hormones. Im sleepy like all the time! It sucks and it disturbs my plans most of the time. Oh and apparently I need to learn how to chill , when im in my weird I feel awkward mood my fingers start moving randomly and my heart starts beating really fast. This shizz needs to stop.

Thats about it kthxbye.